Where are you going Matthew?
It's none of your business!
Matthew drove his car leaving Cindy outside her house.
I should stop this feelings i have for her... Matthew talking to himself.
Tears started falling from his eyes. I don't deserve this!!!
A lot of questions running on his mind, questions that are unanswered.
Leaving Cindy is the hardest decision he made, he wanted to go back to show Cindy how sincere he was when he said the words "i love you" but he knows that's not what Cindy wants. Maybe Cindy wanted me out of her life!
Matthew tried to control himself not to call Cindy. Once in a while, Matthew is looking on his cell phone wondering if Cindy will give him a call. He even changed his ringer into a loud mode thinking that if Cindy will call, he might not hear it. There was no call from Cindy and today is the 3rd day!
Matthew was wondering how's Cindy. There are questions he wanted to ask... did you eat your lunch on time?.. how was your long day at work? Questions he used to ask Cindy with a smile and while waiting for her response he will crack a joke and both of them will laugh. Cindy, i miss you everyday... I am sorry if i love you... Matthew cried. It was my heart that dictates the words "i love you" using my voice as an instrument to send the message of my heart to you... Cindy, please forgive my heart for loving you...... If forgiving me would mean removing my heart and leaving me lifeless i will be a happy dying man for the love of my life had forgiven me and if she took my life away that would only mean i will die in her arms... Just like two of my dreams to grow old and die with you...
It was already past 3am. Matthew can't stop thinking about Cindy. He was reminiscing their good times together. The first time he saw Cindy's smile, the first time he held her soft hands, the first time they went out for lunch, their dinner dates, their star gazing, movie dates and endless conversation w/o realizing the hours that had passed. Matthew looked outside his window and he whispered to the wind...
Cindy, you are my only heart's desire, you are part of my dreams and my hopes but where are you now my angel??? You know, i miss you... The cold wind suddenly blow towards his face, it seems that the wind has the answer to his questions. I'm sorry Cindy, please i beg you to forgive me....
It's about a week that Matthew didn't receive any word from Cindy. He doesn't want to wait any longer. He swallowed his pride. I can't just sit the whole day and wait for Cindy to come... I want to see her now!!! I will say sorry to her and I will do this for the sake of my great love for her. Matthew went straight to Cindy's place.
Outside her house, Matthew was hesitant to knock... He was a bit uneasy because he doesn't know what he will say to Cindy or how to react if he sees Cindy. At the back of his mind, he knew that he needs to do this. He needs to apologize so they can go back the way they were before...
He knock twice, thrice and a lot of times but there was no answer. He forcibly opened the door and found Cindy lying on the floor unconscious...
Cindy??? Cindy!!!!!!! Please wake up!!!!!!!
Matthew rushed Cindy to the hospital... He knew from his heart that Cindy will survive. Baby, please don't die... While driving he is holding Cindy's hands. Baby, you can't die... I still have plans for us, i will marry you in any church you like, i will give you children and we will have a happy life... Matthew is crying. He is praying to God not to take away from him the girl he love the most. I keep my faith to you, please let her survive...
In the hospital, the doctors performed an immediate surgery for Cindy. There were small broken glasses buried into some parts of her body and worst, there were tiny pieces found inside her eyes, that made her blind. The doctors removed her eyes to avoid spreading infections to other areas of her body.
Cindy lives alone. Her parents are in the province. No one knew about the accident that happened to her except for Matthew. If Matthew didn't visit her that day, Cindy might be dead by now.
Inside the small chapel in the hospital, you will find Matthew bent on his knees asking for God's mercy. Please do not take the life of the girl i love the most... If there is life that you need to take away today, please take mine... Matthew was crying. While in the middle of his prayer he heard his name through the pager of the hospital. He was being called by the doctors of Cindy on the 6th floor.
Matthew, the operation was successful! We need to remove her eyes to avoid the infection that may spread to her body. As per the hospital record, you found her unconscious lying on the floor, so we assumed that while she was doing something in her house, she slipped while holding a mirror made of glass. We tried removing the tiny glasses from her eyes at first hoping that we can still revive her vision but to our dismayed her eyes were already infected.
Matthew began talking and these are the words he said... Doctor, please take my eyes and give it to her... I rather be blind than to see her suffer...
The doctor was surprised of what he heard from Matthew... The doctor asked, i hope you don't mind me asking i know she is not your wife because when i checked your records, your last names were different... Is she your girlfriend?!?
Matthew wiped his tears and said... Doctor you are right, Cindy is not my wife, she is not even my girlfriend but to give love to a person doesn't mean asking the love back... I give because i love and i don't expect anything in return... I love her so much and i know that giving her my eyes will never give me an assurance that she will also love me... Doctor, i want the operation to be done today so that when she wakes up anytime soon she will have my eye sight to see how beautiful life can be despite of the accident that happened to her... There is one more favor i need to ask from you, please do not tell her that she lost her vision and I gave her mine...
The teary-eyed doctor smiled to him and said my son, Cindy is very lucky to have you in her life. We seldom see people like you... I never knew that great love still exists in this world... The doctor tapped Matthew's shoulder.
On that same day, the doctors started the operation of Matthew. The doctors removed Matthew's eyes and performed another surgery to Cindy putting the eyes of Matthew to her... After long hours of operation, it was successful. The vision of Cindy were back through Matthew's eyes... The following day, Matthew woke up and sees nothing. He knew that he made the right choice by giving his eyes to Cindy. Like what he always tell Cindy, that he will give everything even the most impossible things to make her happy... I can no longer see her beautiful face and smile... Probably, ill just think of her more often so not to forget her beautiful face and i hope to dream of her every night, i want to see an image of her smiling at me...
Five days after, Matthew heard that Cindy regained her consciousness. He is so excited to see Cindy but he realized that he can no longer see her beautiful face and smile. I want to touch her and feel her soft hands... The doctors and nurses told Matthew that Cindy doesn't know anything... But Matthew, as excited as he was when they first met is the same feeling when he touched the door knob of her room.
Cindy? Is that you?
Yes, who are you?
The bandage that was placed around his eyes covering half of his face made it hard for Cindy to recognize him.
This is Matthew, how are you?
Matthew is standing far from Cindy, he can't move his foot forward because he's afraid that he might fall...
I'm good, i don't know why I'm here but what happened to you?
Well, i met a car accident during the week that we were not talking... I did not inform you because i don't want you to worry... The doctor said it will take time for my vision to be back to normal... By the way, did you eat already? He remembered the question that he wanted to ask Cindy when they were apart.
No, i did not but thanks anyway...
He tried to step forward but he fell to the ground. Cindy, I'm sorry....
Matthew wanted to cry but there's no way for him to do it. His heart was in pain. There's no other way for him to release the pain but crying. In his mind, he knew that he can bear all pain for Cindy.
Sorry for what Matthew?
For saying "i love you".... He was trying to stand up.
You really have to feel sorry specially now that you are disabled.
Despite the numerous times Cindy hurts him, it never lessen the love he had for her.
Please visit me some other time Matthew, I want to rest.
I'm sorry Cindy if i bothered you, please remember I'm always here for you like what I've written on my last letter... As long as i live, i will never leave you and I will protect you from harm.
Stop making dramas Matthew... Look at you, how can you protect me now that you are blind?
Stop hurting me Cindy, i will go now but please take care of yourself and despite of the numerous times you pushed me away that's twice as much as i will be here for you...
He turned his back and went out from the room... He wanted to burst out crying but he knew he can no longer do it. He knew from his heart that by giving his eyes to Cindy, she is already protected...
Many years passed... Matthew never heard a word from Cindy... He doesn't know her whereabouts. Matthew remained single and he never had a stable job because of his disability. When his parents died, he was sent to the orphanage by his relatives but despite of his failures and disappointments in life, he never regret the day when he gave his eyes to Cindy...
Matthew is getting older. You will see some fine line wrinkles on his face. There were a lot of bruises and wounds on different parts of his body because being blind is never easy... He slipped, stumbled and fell numerous times but every time he fell to the ground, he thinks that at least it wasn't Cindy who's experiencing all the pain... Then he will smile while trying to get up because he knew that Cindy is living a normal life. The thought of it already cured his wounds and eased the pain on his body. He may never live a normal life like others, having family of their own and stable job but he is happy knowing that Cindy is experiencing the good life. He thinks about Cindy everyday. There's no single day that he failed to remember Cindy. He always pray for Cindy's safety.
15 years later, Matthew was lying alone in his room. He was thinking on what day it might have been. He doesn't know the calendar dates anymore. Most of his birthdays he no longer knew, unless he is being greeted by the people in the orphanage. Come Christmas, he will know that it's approaching not because he keeps track on the dates but because of the cold breeze that touches his face every morning. Cold breezes starts on September and when I woke up early today i felt the cold breeze again on my face. I felt the first cold breeze four days ago so that means today is September 5th. He is certain, he remembered it right, it was also September 5th when he first saw Cindy and today is the 15th years! Matthew went to the head office of the orphanage. He asked permission from the head if he can go back to the place where Cindy and him first met. The head asked one of the lady takers to accompany Matthew. Madam, thank you for allowing my wish to be granted today. I am very excited to go back to the most important place of my life. I know that my love wouldn't be there but the thought of going back to the place where i first saw her beautiful smile will truly make me happy... you don't know madam how important this is to me....
Accompanied by the lady taker, Matthew went back to the church where he first saw Cindy. It was 15 years ago, Matthew already forgot the direction but for some reasons they were not lost... When they finally reached the place, he was so excited... There were a lot of memorable moments he had with Cindy in that place. He was telling the lady taker the stories. Lady, as i looked in front of this church do you see a Mango tree across the street on my right? Yes, the lady replied... 15 years ago, I was standing on the shade of that tree when i first saw Cindy. She was so beautiful on her white dress... I smiled at her and she smiled back at me. Every Thursday of the week, i always go to the same place where i first saw her. I knew she noticed it already because every Thursday, same time, I am waiting for her outside... I wanted to go near her but I just can't! As much as i wanted to come inside her church i know I am not allowed, that is why i am only waiting for her outside... Then, i saw a friend who happened to be her church mate and from him i was able to get her number. I started sending her messages, calling her everyday and inviting her out every weekends and that's where our love story started... Oopps sorry, it wasn't ours..... It's only my own love story because she never loved me.... It was indeed the happiest days of my life... Maybe now, if we were given a chance to be together, we already have a family of our own... Maybe we have 5 beautiful kids all are already in high school... Maybe now were planning which school our children will go to college... Maybe I am now inside this church on a Thursday with her and our children praying together... Maybe it's hard to raise 5 kids that are almost the same age??? What do you think lady?
By the way, i remember writing our names on that Mango tree... Please bring me across that street miss...
Matthew touched the tree, this is it! I knew it! This is the tree where i wrote our names... Can you find it for me? I know it's somewhere here... Have you seen it? Hey miss!?! Why aren't you answering? Are you still there??? Don't leave me ok? I don't know how to go back to the orphanage...
I found it Matthew, she hold his hand and bring it to the part of the tree where he wrote their names together... I can't feel it anymore, maybe the long years and weather washed it away...
I can clearly read it Matthew, you wrote, -Matt and Cindy I Love You-.
Then both of them laugh...
Matthew suddenly stop laughing...
Lady, when you held my hand, it felt like it was Cindy's hands... The way you laugh is the same as hers... Tell me, what's your name mam? Are you new in the orphanage? Can i touch your face?...
She let him touch her face and they both cried... Cindy, i know it's you... How can i forget your beautiful face and smile... The touch of your soft hands... Your sweet voice and laugh... Matthew hugged her tight... I miss you so much....... Cindy... Tell me, where did you go all these years???
Finally, Cindy revealed the most heart breaking secret she had kept for the longest time.
Matthew, since the day that you left me in the hospital, it was also the same day i followed you. For the past 15 years I am just right beside you. I know you never knew it because you can't see me but like you to me, I want to protect you from harm... In the hospital, the doctors and nurses were inside my room, i was pretending to be asleep and i heard them talking about how lucky i am because of your unconditional love for me... One of them said because of your great love, you gave me your vision so I can see... I don't know if i will thank you or give your eyes back because just like you to me, I don't want to see you suffer... I applied as your household maid and pretended to be another person... I did it because just like you to me,I will never leave you... Every morning when you wake up, i ready your clothes to wear. I always choose your favorite colors - yellow, white and gray. After you take a bath, i made sure that your breakfast is prepared. I bring your slippers wherever you go so not to hurt your feet. I also put a soft protection on all the edges i see inside your room for you to avoid accident. I tour you outside the house everyday so you can feel the sunset and fresh air. When you were sick, i worry too much but never did i miss your medicine for you to get well. On Christmas Eve, i have a secret gift for you, remember the gift i placed below your pillow? When you opened it, it was a necklace... Our names were engraved on that necklace... I know that you will never see it but just like you to me, I want you to be happy. On your birthday, you were lonely because your parents were out of town for business trip, can you still recall that i handed you a gift and i told you it came from your mom and dad? The truth is i bought it, it was a pillow with a "thank you" message because just like you to me, I want to see your beautiful smile and to thank you for your greatest love..... I never speak because I'm afraid that you might recognize me because just like you to me, I want to show my sincerity... I remember you always share stories about Cindy, the great love that you have for her and how much you misses her but the truth is Cindy is just right beside you all the time... Sometimes, if you share your stories, I am crying silently how i wish you knew i am just right here beside you...
When your parents died that was the biggest challenge i encountered. I am afraid to be taken away from you... I heard that time that you will be brought by your relatives to the orphanage so i applied as a taker to continue my duties and obligations to you because just like you to me, I am always be here for you... I am cooking the food that you are eating everyday, i make sure that it will be one of your favorites because just like you to me, I do not want you to skip your meal. I change your clothes, brush your teeth, comb your hair, cut your nails and treat your wounds and bruises because just like you to me, I want to take care of you... Matthew, i am here today, not just to fulfill my duties and obligations to you but also to fulfill what your heart's truly desire because just like you to me, I want to share with you the same dreams and desires that you wanted to share with me from the start and that is to grow old and die with you... Matthew, I LOVE YOU...
For the first time after 15 long years, tears fell from the blind eyes of Matthew. There were no tear ducts since the day of his operation but he knows that it's a miracle tears of joy. Suddenly, rain drops started falling from heaven. It's like God wanted to share with them their joys and happiness...
Matthew and Cindy married inside the church where they first met. They live happily inside the orphanage as husband and wife. They were blessed with 2 beautiful children whom they grow humble and God-fearing. After a few years, they are running the orphanage themselves.
The End...
ALL ABOUT "The Great Love In Silence"
"In love, there are no impossible things, no strong walls can ever hinder, no ethical differences can ever stop, because in love, everything are made possible."
"The Love Story of "Matthew and Cindy" was created by my thoughts to provide a clear interpretation in defining what "Great Love" is all about".
"The Title " The Great Love In Silence" was created based on the story, how "Great Love" was best shown and expressed in Silence by two people who love each other w/o conditions."
Thanks for reading My Creation. I will continue writing to inspire many, specially the hopeless romantic and desperate in love. I hope my story somehow inspired you not to give up on your battle for Great Love and Endless Romance... Dimples XV